Happy

Because I’ve lost a stone since I started eating better and gyming :) one more to go until im at my target weight!

Gym

I never thought I would say this but I actually miss going!

I am so frustrated that I cant go because of my ankle and I don’t know when I can start going again :(

The weight I have lost is very slowly making its way back on because I cant be bothered to be healthy when my ankle hurts and I cant exercise to get rid of it. grrr…

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Get some food in my belly!

I literally cannot stop thinking about food.

I do not remember the Special K diet being this hard last time. I smell food everywhere, I find my mouth filling with saliva if I look at food pictures. I love food.

But I am being good - I am not giving in - its all in the mind and I have lost 2lbs this week so Ha food! you will not beat me! I do not need you in all your calorific loveliness.

I could murder a steak baguette right now though. with curly fries.

Damn you healthy lifestyle! I want pizza with stuffed crust!

Guess I’ll just have a banana instead :(

xxx

Its been a long weight….

but finally I am seeing some results from my change of lifestyle/exercising!

Several friends that I havent seen in a month or so have said they can notice. I have lost 12lbs in 2 1/2 months, and I did my measurements again yesterday and I have lost 2 inches off my waist and 1 inch off my hips :)

If the Special K does its job I should be able to lose another 4/5lbs in the next couple of weeks and then I can go back to doing my usual diet plan once I have broken through the barrier.

I have another 18 weeks until I go to Europe and hopefully I should be able to get to my target weight by then, 25lbs (11.3kg) more to go. If I lose 1.3lbs a week then I should be on target.

I’m still going to the gym 3 times a week, spin class twice in my lunch break and legs,bums and tums after work. I wondering if I should up it to one more class but at the moment I have settled into a nice routine and I cant believe I am actually going on a regular basis.

I think portion control is my biggest problem so I need to start eating from a smaller plate and halving my portions. I don’t know if my need to finish my plate stems from when I was younger and being told to finish my meal but its a habit I need to break. I kind of wish I could afford to have my food delivered so the portions are already done for me!

Still the overall result is that I am doing well and just need to keep at it.

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I must be desperate!

So after careful deliberation (as I tried this 4 years ago and swore I would never do it again because I got so sick of it) I have started the Special K diet today. The last time I did it I was on it for a month and I lost 1 and a half stone (probably because you don’t eat anything!)

I’ve just been stuck at the same weight for 3 weeks now and I think I need to give my metabolism a kick start and try and kick this weight wall down. I’m only going to do it for a couple of weeks but its just to try and get something moving again.

For anyone that doesn’t know what you need to do – its 2 bowls of cereal a day and then a main meal. I must say I’m bloody mad though – weighed out my cereal this morning – 60g, 30g for breakfast and 30g for lunch and I’m looking at it like ‘Is that it?!’ I’ve bought some summer fruits to go on top but if I don’t lose any weight this way then I can only say I am destined to be this way because for the next 2 weeks I am going to be a very hungry Cara!

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Meat Market aka The Gym

My gym really is something else. You can literally see the girls preening and the men flexing their muscles, they are all so obvious about it! When a class comes out of the studio, the men drop what they are doing and watch all the women walk past. You could cut the sexual tension with a knife. And then there is me, trying hard to hide the sweaty mess that I have become.

I literally do not understand the girls that go to the gym and waltz into the changing rooms afterwards with not a drop of sweat on them, make up perfect and not a hair out of place. Either they are not exercising properly or they just have no sweat glands.

When I go into the changing rooms I am dripping with sweat, hair plastered to my skull, and looking like a massive great tomato.

Seriously – how the bloody hell do they do it?!

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still dropping…

I am still losing weight :) I’ve lost 9lbs since I started in January, I’m glad that it is coming off slowly - it means that it will stay off.

I’m even getting to the stage where I really dont hate going to the gym!

The nicest part about this all - a work colleague who I haven’t seen in 3 weeks said to me yesterday ‘you look like you’ve lost weight’ which is great! The bad thing about living with someone or seeing someone everyday is that they don’t notice so it’s nice when people do.

I still have about 20lbs to go but it’s constantly dropping and not coming back on so I’m ok with it taking a bit of time to get there.

xxx

First Anon Post.

It addresses the fact that in my last post (with Christina Hendricks) I put that all women should aspire to be like this.

They are not the first person to comment on this - in fact it seems that a few people aren’t happy about it, even my best friend commented on it and said that my view was incorrect.

I will say what I said to her - that I see so many thinspo blogs on here and they make me so sad that women feel they need to half starved to look attractive and they blog about how they ate an apple and how awful it was of them. I am well aware that there are people out there who are naturally ‘skinny’ and happy with it, there are also people out there who have more weight and love their bodies.

My wording was perhaps incorrect on that post as I really didnt mean any harm at all, perhaps ‘I aspire to be like this’ is more correct. Like I said to my friend the point I was trying to make is having hips and boobs is fine.of course being happy with you is the most important thing.

I am sorry for anyone I have offended with this. I have removed said comment to stop further offence.

I will forever blog about this woman. She is my no 1 girl crush. This is my goal - to get as close to this body as possible - I’ve already got the boobs and the hips so I’m half way there!