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and I don’t feel like I have revised enough or know enough to do this exam.

I am hoping that I will be able to remember quotes and that I will sit down look at the question and just write and write and write.

Leigh says I can’t fail as long as I write my name at the top!

And after the exam is done I am on my summer holiday! Well in so much that I still have to work but at least I don’t have to do an essay for 2 months!

Wish me luck


I am getting myself so worked up over this exam that I have to do next month. I am seriously freaking out about it.

I don’t know why. I don’t know if its because I haven’t done one in 8 years, I rely on spell check, or that I think I’m going to just fail. I can’t stop thinking about it and yet there is nothing that I can really do apart from go in there and just try and get it done.

I must keep repeating to myself that:

  • I am 25 years old - this is better than the last time I did an exam at 17 as I know more
  • I am reasonably intelligent 
  • I know I can write quickly
  • I can do this

Yeah none of that worked. I AM STILL STRESSING OUT! AHHHHHH


There is so much to do in my life right now. There aren’t enough hours in the day I believe the saying goes.

Not only do I have to pack and decorate I have an essay due in 2 weeks so I have to try and allocate some time for that as well. Only that’s the one thing I don’t have.

I have tried to make a timetable but everything keeps changing so it’s hard to pin down when we will be able to get everything done. Luckily we have got a week between being able to move into the new place and moving out of the old so we can get most of the packing done then but the flat will have to be cleaned as well to pass our inspection to get the deposit back.

If I’m not stressing about cleaning, it’s Uni, or decorating, or finding money. Unfortunately all of this busy-ness is not helping me on my weight loss mission. Indeed it is having the opposite effect of making me want to eat lots of pasta and cheese which is my go to comfort food when I feel like crap.

So much to do!


I just cant seem to find the motivation to do my essay. I know it need to be done but I am just tired of being at Uni now.

It’s been 4 years and still another 2 to go and I just want it to be over so I don’t have to worry about another essay again!

Plus I went to class and as usual they were all so pretentious and quoting Jane Austen at each other. There was wine though. That made it slightly bearable. 

Just need to keep the mantra ‘It will be worth it!!!’


Just handed in my first essay for my reading and studying literature course!

It’s been easier because I’ve literally just finished a course and plunged into this one so I’ve still got some good habits when it comes to essay writing, although I still tend to leave it until the last minute. The questions, word count and context have become a fair bit harder though. The leap from Lv 1 courses to Lv 2 is quite large. I dont remember the jump from Lv 2 to Lv 3 being quite so difficult. I like that I have seen a mixture of all the courses in the wrong order though, at least I vaguely know what to expect and dropping to a Lv 1 course was lovely after harder work.

So my essay was on Othello and the language used which I found quite tricky, I am not a fan of Shakespeare or plays particularly but I know that these are good skills to learn. I am quite happy with the essay, although I always worry about the first one as the tutor is new and getting used to your style of writing, I’ve been really lucky with the last 2 tutors – I just hope that I never have a tutor like my first year one again – she was horrible and nearly made me want to give up on writing which a teacher should never do.

My biggest worry with this course is the written exam, I always did quite well but that was 7 years ago!  It’s a 3hr exam as well so not really a walk in the park, but its in June and later that month I’m going to Glastonbury so it will be a nice reward!

Starting to look towards my next essay question now which includes looking at ‘contexts of European colonisation and exploration’ – Nobody said this was going to be easy!

I got a B in my latest essay. Feel a bit gutted about not getting another A but I was only 2 marks off and the topic was Gothic Architect revival so I think I did pretty well but still…..going to work extra hard on my next one!


I got another A in my OU course :)

I’m so pleased I’m doing well with these - I hope I can keep it up because now I’ve committed to this degree I really need to get the grades, whereas before it wasn’t such a necessity.

Happy Happy!


I have just declared my degree.

I am now officially working towards my BA (Honours) English Literature degree :)


I’ve finally started! I’ve got 11 days to write 2 x 500 word essays. Loads of time!

If only I didn’t love procrastination. 


I seem to have a problem with studying. I have all the best intentions to study and then I ruin them by not bothering to study.

I am going to put in an hour tonight no matter what!


ps. anyone watch Being Human?! Didn’t see that one coming!!!

Have my first class today, I am officially a student again, which has its bonus/negative points.

Bonus: I’m working towards a degree and studying a subject I am interested in

Negative: I have to study, and do essays and basically meet deadlines, which I am ridiculously bad at.

I have just started reading my set book (which I should have already read probably) for this section and it’s  Dr Faustus. Which is a play. Which is written in Shakespearean English. Which is bloody hard to read. In fact it’s my least favourite form of text and here I am trying to make sense of the bloody thing. So I did what every person with a brain would do and I googled the Synopsis. Apparently it’s about a man who turns to magic and sells his soul. I just hate the stop and start  effect reading plays has, it makes it hard to get into.

My first essay is going to be so hard to get into after a 6 month break from learning, but I’ve got all my course books so I’m set up to be a model student. Ha!

Busy girl this evening with work, gym and then school. I feel good about filling my life with things and I’m even starting to not hate the gym as much! I had a personal trainer session the other day and he talked to me about what’s best to do for what I want to achieve. Rowing is one of the main things, although not rowing like I would do it, actually setting a pace boat and trying to go as fast and hard as possible, I think he took glee in every drop of sweat, evil man! But it will be worth it.


My OU course website has finally opened!

I have been looking at all the work that needs to be done and feeling apprehension but looking forward to certain chapters as well, especially the History.

The worst thing to happen is a deadline for the 10th August – I will be in Berlin then! I have an essay deadline for the 6th July so once I’ve completed that one I will have to get my essay done and sent off before I go to Europe which is going to be a pain.

Overall though the course seems to look good and it will get me one step closer to that degree so I just need to buckle down and get on with it, making sure I’m not rushing the essays in the last 2 days. Having said all that it’s what has happened for the last 2 years so my good intentions always go flying out the window!

I received my books in the post a couple of weeks ago and they smell so lovely and new, soon (hopefully if I’m good) they will be covered in my scribbles J

The first tutorial class is going to be exciting – I’ll be interested to see the age range of my class as in previous years they have always been slightly older. Hopefully there will be a few people my age as it would be nice to meet some more people in London. I don’t have to go every week either, like I thought I might have to.

Just waiting for my set books to arrive now and then I can get started swotting up!


I’ve just found out that I will have to go to evening classes with the Open Uni. I have never had to do this before!! I’m not sure if it will be every week but if it is I will suddenly be very busy indeed what with the gym and uni and work.

I am exited about meeting the other people in the class though. I love new people!


I swear this is the best scheme ever to come about. 

I just found out that I have a place on the ‘Arts past and present’ course which starts in February and will count as 60 credits towards my degree.

Not only do they pay for the £700 course fee but I will get a small grant as well :)

Really quite excited about this course - its not just literature but history and art as well which are two subjects I love.

Thought I’d share the course plan with you too. Cant wait for this!

Book 1: Reputations Why are some individuals famous? What is it about Cézanne’s paintings or Cleopatra’s life that makes them so well known? This book takes you from the distant past to the contemporary world to consider these questions in the light of the famous, the infamous and the unjustly neglected. Case studies of significant figures (Cleopatra, Josef Stalin, Michael Faraday and the Dalai Lama) introduce subject-specific skills such as differentiating between primary and secondary sources, and understanding and interpreting varied points of view. This will enable you to develop an understanding of how we construct ideas of the past. Chapters on Christopher Marlowe and Paul Cézanne consider artistic reputation through the works that made them famous: Marlowe’s Dr Faustus, the absorbing, tragic story of the man who sells his soul to the devil; and Cézanne’s mysterious, beguiling paintings of bathers and the Mont St Victoire. You’ll acquire competencies in visual analysis and the critical reading of literary texts. A chapter on the musical Diva explores artistic reputation from a different perspective and investigates why some performers become famous. The same chapter also introduces varied musical repertoires and develops your close listening skills.

Book 2: Tradition and Dissent Tradition is a widely used word, particularly in academic contexts, but what do we mean by it? Why is it important to an understanding of the arts? What does it mean to dissent from tradition? This book provides some answers while extending the range of your skills. We begin with Laches, the work of the ancient Greek philosopher Plato, which raises questions about how reliable tradition is as a source of knowledge. This is followed by discussion of tradition in relation to poetry, centred on an attractive anthology of poems about animals. Linked chapters explore religious dissent in England (including the cataclysmic story of the Reformation in England), and the gothic revival of the nineteenth century, concentrating on the work of the revolutionary architect Augustus Pugin. Ideas of tradition underpin the formation of nation states: by looking at the invention of tradition in Ireland, you’ll examine this historical process in action. Finally, you’ll listen to the string quartets of the controversial Soviet composer Dmitri Shostakovich, which raise fascinating questions about the importance of tradition to music and the extent that musical works might act as a form of political dissent.

Book 3: Cultural Encounters Cultural Encounters addresses questions that are pertinent both to the changing world we live in and to all arts subjects: what is the relationship between works of art and colonial history? To what extent can objects and texts be translated from one culture to another? There’s more interdisciplinary work in this part of the course. The book begins with linked chapters on the art of Benin – these are extraordinary sculptures from West Africa, which were taken by Britain and other European countries in the late nineteenth century. The chapters consider this encounter between Europe and Africa from both historical and art historical perspectives. The book continues by examining the philosophical tension between liberal ideas of inclusivity and the pressure for exemptions for minorities in contemporary society. You’ll then read a collection of modern short stories from around the world that explore the ways encounters between different cultures shape ideas of identity and belonging. These short stories are followed by an epic of the exchange of knowledge between cultures: the transmission of medical knowledge from Ancient Greece to the Arabian world and then back to medieval Europe. The book ends with another ancient text – Sophocles’s seminal tragedy, Antigone. You’ll study this play in the Nobel Laureate Seamus Heaney’s 2004 translation, The Burial at Thebes. Cumulatively, these individual case studies enrich and complicate our sense of the interplay and exchange of ideas from one culture to another.

Book 4: Place and Leisure The final book explores ideas of place and leisure: how should we interpret sacred spaces or Roman villas? What is the meaning and history of leisure? As well as these thematic questions, the end of the course prompts you to consider what you’ve learnt and what you’ll want to study in the future. With AA100 as the basis for your studies, you will have a good grounding in a range of subjects and their methodologies. The book has two related concerns, outlined in the opening chapters. First we consider leisure as a philosophical issue: what is the purpose of life, and how does leisure fit into broader accounts of what its purpose should be? Secondly, we look at how we interpret the human environment, from ancient monuments through to twentieth-century cities, by interrogating what we mean by the idea of sacred space. These concerns are joined together by focusing on Roman ideas of leisure, both in the evidence of Latin literature and the archaeological remains of villas from across the Roman Empire. The course concludes with a multidisciplinary study of the seaside. This material combines social history of the development of the British seaside resort in the nineteenth and twentieth centuries, including work on the changing technologies that fostered seaside holidays, with analysis of different representations of the seaside phenomenon in film, music and visual art.

My set books are:

Heaney, Seamus (tr)The Burial at Thebes 

Marlowe, Christopher: O’Conor, John (ed)Doctor Faustus the A text 

Muldoon, Paul (ed)The Faber Book of Beasts

Prescott, Lynda (ed)A World of Difference: an anthology of short stories from five continents 

This is going to be so much fun!


is the course that I have decided to do next. Should hopefully have a place and be starting on the 1st October.

It will be essays again but I think it is good for me to stick with what I have just been doing as I will have the essay knowledge in my head.

Quite excited!


I'm Cara ♥ A 25 year old who lives in London with my darling boyfriend and adorable cat.

This is my life.....

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